Lol..

1 word for my blog. 'Rot'. Lol. So long didn't posted. Hmm, Yeah come in to write a short one to make it not to rot longer. :)

Average or high end jobs intro needed !

Dozens of days since i last posted. People i did told you i work at West Mall. Well, please people, i need jobs intro. HAHA! Best is LAN shop job. :) The boss, starting very friendly. Now, more and more guai lan. Nb. Somemore pay so little. Thats why i want to hop. :( And, i still waiting for someone to help me paint my nails. O: Ring me up if you can alright?!

Your wonderful lies..

You told me, we broke up because you were tired of loving someone. I didn't ask much. I begged you to stay. You didn't. Naozxc, in less than a month, you are with someone new. You said you're glad that you found him. You guessed so he's the guy you're looking for. So what you told me were just lies? The feeling? The love? You said you were true to me?

Thanks for all the LIES you told me..

Misses ;

Start working at West Mall yesterday already. Still the same old line, anyone getting a pair of shoes at Bata, let me know! :) Overall, the job is quite okay. Just that you have memorized which shoe where to find in the store. So you see.. Today off, the only one off till next week. Cool. So guys, don't assume it's weekend and i'll be free. O: Tomorrow back to working. Good luck!


How hard i tried, i still can't.
You just affect my mood in any ways.
At least you know my heart will miss you.
Those memories will be sweet.
i won't forget i love you.

希望..

我一直以来都守护在你身边

不懂你如何看得见

只好静静靠在一边

你的笑容能让我开心一整天

只要一天没和你见面

我的心情不会好一点

时间已经不多

我还有话很想说

隐藏在我心里不懂如何开口

我们很快就要走

回忆也不算太多

简简单单希望你会懂

不能在一起也没关系

至少你懂我的心 会在想你

那些回忆会永远保持甜蜜

不管未来你会在哪里

我都不会忘记 我爱你

你是我微笑的原因

只是希望你能比从前开心

所以..

Yeah Hey Yeah Yeah
想到了第一次见到你
你有一种奇怪的魔力
我感觉到了自己偷偷想靠近你
想到了第二次见到你
感觉我并没那么高兴
因为我发现自己和你的距离

这是爱情还是你太美丽
让我作出不可思议的事情
我只知道我要看你开心
我什么都愿意 只要能够靠近你

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
因为我只想要你开心
我知道我会辛苦也会难过
但我什么都愿意
不在乎狂风暴雨不管你在那里

我知道你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜
所以我 才静静守着你
每一次看他紧紧拉着你手我眼泪不停的流
也只好默默退后
我什么都没说
静静忍住痛

想到了第一次见到你
你有一种奇怪的魔力
我感觉到了自己偷偷想靠近你
想到了第二次见到你
感觉我并没那么高兴
因为我发现自己和你的距离 这是爱情还是你太美丽
我像是着了迷 只要能够靠近你

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
因为我只想要你高心
我知道我会辛苦也会难过
但我什么都愿意
不在乎狂风暴雨不管你在那里

我知道你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜
所以我 才静静守着你
每一次看他紧紧拉着你手我眼泪不停的流
也只好默默退后
我什么都没说
静静忍住痛

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
因为我只想要你高心
我知道我会辛苦也会难过
但我什么都愿意
不在乎狂风暴雨不管你在那里

我知道你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜
所以我 才静静守着你
每一次看他紧紧拉着你手我眼泪不停的流
也只好默默退后
我什么都没说
静静忍住痛
Hey Hey

I STILL MISS YOU!

I don't care who or whatever, i'm just gonna shout,

I STILL MISS YOU MY DEAR!
WHEREVER YOU ARE!

No other choices..

No other choices.. but to leave her. No other choices.. but to let go of her hands. No other choices.. but to let her lie in other guy's chest. No other choices.. but to try my best to forget her. No other choices.. but to go seperate ways. Dear god, the only thing i ask from you, is to hold her hand when i'm not around.. Tell me if he bully you. I'm always here for you..


Let you go
doesn't mean i don't love you,
it's because
i truely love you.

Shagged..

Another dream today. Totally don't know what to say. Dreamt of patching up with her and woke up staring at the ceiling blankly. Yesterday also dreamt of her. Feel totally shagged. Her everything is just craved there, in my heart. Siannnnnnnnnnnnnzxc. No mood post alr, byes.

Crazy me!

I'm a bad son yesterday. I secretly asked my friends to drive my dad's van out for a spin. LOL. Of course, we have to secretly park back the car, and clear everything that we left on the car. Even the oil tank, we pumped it back. Hopes my dad won't know. LOL. Went changi. Not to really see bapoks. Just wanted to have wind on my face, so asked WX to speed abit. Crazy as we are again. Played with a Picanto. Rofls. Went to top speed of 140km/h. WX taught me how to drive a manual. Cause i already did know how to drive a auto. Of course without a license. Well, i'm gonna head down BBDC one of these few days to apply my name for bike license. Stop your laziness, Dumb! Once i have my license, i'll immediately get a Kawa. So wish me luck. :)

Her?

Was real tired yesterday, and was gonna sleep at 2am. My phone rang. Jas asked me whether i want to drink, and i was about to say 'no bah'. She said RJ is with her. So well, asked where are they. Cabbed down West Mall to find them. Tiger again. Maybe i was seriously too tired, for a moment, i drink till fall asleep. Lol. Same, RJ was drunk again. So i just stayed beside to look after her. Jas knew about my little secret. So yeah, she keep left me and RJ alone. Held her everywhere she went. Sent her back home at 6am+. After that, wanted to hire cab home. Walked to bus stop. First bus for 188 is 0710, see time 0630. So just sat down there and waited. For alot of time, i fell asleep. That 30mins was a miserable one. Lol. So reached home, never cared much, collapsed in my bed. Slept all the way till 6pm. And now, having my Mac, lazy to go out buy, ordered from delivery. I go eat alr. :)

Another Ironman day.

Went West Coast last night with Jas. View was pretty, the sea the stars. Thumbs up. After that, RJ came to find us. Then, they suggested drinking. So cabbed to somewhere near their house. At that time was 4am. So we were unable to get any aclohols at 7-11. So went to the restaurant beside it to grab 4 bottles of tiger. First to finish a bottle, me. Woots. After that, RJ got drunk, she was so talkative. Conclusion, a drunk person is a talkative person. Agree, she was so damn funny. :) Have to look after her till we get her home at 7am in the morning. Cabbed back home. Slept at 0745, and woke up at 10am for work. Yeah, Ironman. After work, have to MRT-ed home myself. Override station, fall asleep in train. Lol. When i alighted to ride the opposite side, damn awkward. Reach home, bathed. And got to charge up again. Even Ironman has to rest. Well..

Night breeze is cooling. (:

Just reached home. Yeah, went West Mall at 10pm to meet Jasmine and her friend. Saw Holly mei there too. She told me she work at there. Well, we will see each other more often when i work in Bata. Hahas. Waited till 11pm for WX and his friend to pick us up for breeze with lorry. Went Yishun dam, well, as today was only friday. Ain't many cars to see. Stayed there for breeze till 1am plus. So was getting bored, and we got to one country club nearby for pooling. As Jas and friend didn't bring ICs, so had to do abit talking. We still managed to get us all in. So stayed there to pool till it's closed. And was dicussing where to go, suggested prawning to them. But all was tired, so, had to postpone till next time. :) Sent Jas and her friend home, then me. Well, prawning! Here we comes!

I.. love you.

To add on...

Haish, when i see your photos, my heart just ached again. Why? Someone tell me please. It really causes me pain that i can't hold you. I wanted to pick myself up. But when i see you, i went back to where i started again. I just can't forget you. You are the first girl in my life, that i really cherish. I just couldn't bear to let go of you. Is loving you deep, wrong? I don't mind the hurts you cause as long as i can hold you again, really. It's 5am currently. Another sleepless night without your existence.
Dear god, the only thing i ask from you, is to hold her when i'm not around..
I.. love you.

You're my memories..

Yeah, just came back from clementi's recreation centre. Went there for pool. Cabbed home. Starting to be able to let you go bit by bit, but it doesn't mean my love for you have faded. (: Interviewed for West Mall's Bata store. The boss said he will arrange it. Most probably, i will start working there next monday. Sorry daddy! I hopped from your job! And he wasn't even angry at all. He told me it's a good chance that i go out and learn to socialise more. Thanks man! So people, if you're getting any new pairs of shoes that interests you in Bata, please come down and support me. Starting next week. (: Should be writing more tomorrow. Rushing for Dota in Garena with my friend. Haha! Cheers all.

i just can't.

My heart's aching. Whatever i do, i just think of you. I buried myself in work, free myself with cigarettes, using alcohols to drunk myself. I tried to forget you, but you are just so deep down in my heart. I just can't. You told me that we were together is just a mistake, i think it's just fate thats playing us around.

Having you by my side, i felt happiness. Remember those times. You said i made you feel like first love. The conversations we had. The talks we had. The movies we watched. The hands we hold. The warmth we hugged. The sweetness of the kisses we gave. The sweet shy smiles you gave. The promises we had. Happiness we had. We started off as strangers, to friends, to lovers. We always thought that we were unbreakable. We discussed that if i go NS, what will happen to you. We think of ways, that we can be together. We thought of the future. We said everlasts. We were so blissed.

Your love for me has faded now. Dreams came to an end. Promises broken. Everlasts become memories. You said we have to go seprate ways. We have our own life to continue. Without you, i just don't know how. The emptiness of you in my heart is just making me so hard to breath. Seems like something just not the same, what could i say..



You're just like my drug.
I need you.
I love you.
But i can't, you were no longer here.